Jossule..

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure or competition, but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. In opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

Täpselt kuus aastat tagasi, 4.veebruaril aastal 2007, sai minust ja sinust Meie. Algas meie lugu. Meie lugu, mis on kindlate kaante vahel ja lugu, mida kirjutame edasi ka üksteisest 7000km kaugusel olles. Ükski distants ei suuda muuta seda tunnet, seda kindlust, seda usaldust, neid mälestusi, neid kallistusi, neid kaklusi, meie armastust. Ja nii paljud tühjad valged paberilehed vajavad veel täitmist. 

Ükski sõna ega pilt ei suuda edasi anda neid tundeid, mis minu sees hetkel on. Mu süda valutab igatsusest. Mu süda on õnnelik ja kurb. Mu süda on täis ootusärevust. Ta ootab hetke, mil kohtume taas ja ta ootab ärevusega meie tulevikku. Näen nii selgelt meid 60aasta pärast koos oma lastelastelastega meie koduõue pingil istumas ja jutustamas neile lugusid, kuidas papa sõjaväes teenis ja mamma Ameerikat avastamas käis. Õpetame neile, et unistada tuleb suurelt ja oma inimesi nende unistustes alati toetada. Minul on vedanud. Kuigi see lahusolek teeb meile mõlemile haiget, siis oled sa mind alati mõistnud, miks ma siin olen ja miks ma seda teen ning mind toetanud. Ma armastan sind selle eest! Ma armastan sind kõige eest! Ma armastan sind sinu kiilakast peanupust kuni sinu suure varba otsani!                          Aitäh, et sa mul oled, Jossu.                             Sinu Mellu.